Oh dear, I haven't updated for a very long time - I'm so sorry.
But I am here to say I am 10 weeks pregnant today. *cheers*
You will not believe how happy I am to reach this point, because there have been moments in the past couple weeks when I believed I wouldn't.
On Monday (when I was 9w2d) Jamie rushed me to the EPU at the hospital because I was getting very painful stomach cramps and was bleeding, this absolutely terrified both of us because of our miscarriage in January where I was 9w5d, I convinced myself that it was happening again and could not stop myself from crying.
After almost four hours of waiting, it was our turn to be seen. Fearful of what I would be told I didn't look up to the screen. I just laid on the seat, one hand holding Jamie's the other covering my eyes. I was convinced there was going to be no heartbeat just like in January.
You can imagine how shocked I was when she told me the baby is fine, and I even got to see the heartbeat. Our baby had a good strong heartbeat and was exactly the size its meant to be.
Well needless to say, a new flood of tears filled my eyes, but this time out of pure happiness.
Don't loose all hope. I convinced myself of the worse, and it turned out to be the best.
I will try to update here more, I just completely forgot I had this blog set up
